Simply me

2006-12-30T11:17:00.000+08:00

Was very emo yesterday, lots of reasons causing it. And it is always the same things that is causing it. Haix. It was really bad yesterday and it was also the first time that tears juz drop natuarally. Ah... so emo. It really suxs.

2006-12-29T11:13:00.000+08:00

Holidays ... about to be over. Had been really a busy and tiring holiday. Cant seems to remember what i had been doing and my trip to bangkok seems to be months away. This while, i feel that i m juz a passing shadow in others' life. Nth much to leave behind either.

2006-12-06T00:28:00.000+08:00

A word of advice from a senior

remember that u have made it here...pls onli if onli u have not choice..... work hard onli when u have to

2006-12-04T20:21:00.000+08:00

Had a nice SEA gathering today. Long time did not meet up with them le. Went kbox for lunch. Didnt really sing much tho but still had an enjoyable time. Throat is kinda bad these days. After we went to Vivo to watch movie "Open Season." It is seriously nicer than Happy Feet. Haha. We laugh so much during the movie. Quite nice. Highly Recommended!!! Hehex. Explore abit too.Went Daiso to buy some stuffs too. Hehe.

Everyone is starting on a new journey this holiday. Bless them!

1 Day to FTT
2 Days to BKK
4 Days to Suject Rejistration. ZZZ.

S13 gathering this sat. It clash yet again. Haix. Anyway:

Happy Birthday to Kelvin

Bon Voyage to Zi Xiang!!! Have an enjoyable holiday and find ur perfect "wife" there. Lol. Remember to get urs some Soveneirs!! =p

So funny in the sms i read from Ag n Ellyn. The way ly say is like i not coming back like that. Hahah. So funny lar. See u guys soon. 22nd Dec. Keep that day free ah. Before that, I hope can have the gals outings as normal. Hehe. Miss Ya.

Yesterday

2006-12-03T21:25:00.000+08:00

It was my cousin ROM yesterday, held at my aunt place. Was a brand new experience as it was held in a home. Haha. First time experience for me too. Everything was alright except for some kids who are really very noisy while the ceremony was taking place. Becoz of this, i had to give my course gathering a miss. ZH say i didnt go there n see him wasted (drunk). Haha. Lame sia. The previous meeting was to go kota tinggi and it also clashes with my early before fixed jc gathering date so too bad. The upcoming one is Sentosa. There is a high chance that i may not be going too as i got driving every weekday in the middle of the day and perhaps i may start work too. Serious time to think about the future. Things just clash without knowing it. Today Ag bought tixs for the phantom of the opera and it clash with my exam period but i decide to go along as there is one more paper left the next day and my resolution is to study consistently as i know i would slack throughout the exams period like this sem which i totally didnt study at all. Haha. I really do not know what to expect.

Picture time!!!

the bride and the groom =)

The solemniser + groom + bride

Family Foto =)

2006-11-29T19:57:00.000+08:00

45 entries in 13 mths. What a lousy blogger.

Had a very bad morning that makes me feel how silly and dumb i was. =( I remember my driving lesson time wrongly!!! Dumb me. So hang ard amk area before going back as it was really bored. Thought of many things again.

1. Dreams to be fufilled
2. Why i dread growing up
3. Why is my mood so bad
4. What i am sinful of
5. Who are on my happiness list
6. What do i want for xmas
7. And what i m suppose to be doin now! (study, study study ^100)

Too bo liao until i draw a johari window. Bo liao rite. (Revision for effective comm)

Explanation:
Open area is the region how much people know about me and i know about myself. In my context, the area is very small.

Blind means what other people knows about me but i m not known to it. It is very large as whatever i know of myself is very little and it was my close friends who make me know who i m.

Secret means known to myself but unknown to others.

Unknown means not to self and others.

This is only 1/4 of my thoughts. I m juz lazy to pen all down.

To be improved on.

2006-11-27T10:02:00.000+08:00

Well, another few more days to a year... Remember the times i had a long holiday at US, i really miss the time. Baby jasper was already borned! Hehe. Saw his photo last week. so cute. Time to move on after all the exams. Would be away. And the best thing, subject registration within the period i m aways. This is so great. Haix.

Things to be done
1. Yoga
2. Exercise
3. Drving
4. Pass FTT

Decided to quit strings already. Do not which to be committed to it. Haix. I hate commitments. Making me very stress and tired.

To be continued... happy feet later with my movie partner. Hehe.

In the midst of problem solving. The outcome is ...
Lost of friendships would happen soon... I m sick and tired of this.

2006-11-25T15:22:00.000+08:00

One more to go. I screw the other 5 out. Damn good! =(

Many things to be done now. But no motivation to do anything. I juz force myself to slp longer this morning to make up the no of slpless nites but apparently i still wake up very early. Haix Haix.

One important thing to settle but had not really decide what to do yet so ...

2006-11-20T19:58:00.000+08:00

The 2 most dreadful paper is over. Haha. So damn happy. Another 3 more to go. hehe. Din study much so i din expect much. argh.

Dec is so packed ah. Goin to be mia. so many reasons lar. hmph. shall not state them here tho. many lessons too. many things to be done. hehe.

p/s: if i cant be found, dun fret. nth will happen! hehe.

2006-11-17T23:04:00.000+08:00

Public Apology

Sorry to LB for wasting the time today. Sorry for dragging you around

2006-11-17T21:24:00.000+08:00

Well, i extract this from a friend blog and she was wondering how truth was this. Feel free to comment.

There was a study done where a control group of 100 people were divided into two.
50 people watched a very funny, tears-of laughter type movie.
50 watched a very sad and tears of compassion type movie.
At the end of the sessions researchers collected the "happy tears" and the "sad tears" with eye droppers. They found that "happy tears" are made up of brine...salt water and not a great deal else. However the "sad tears" were found to contain the very same chemicals and enzymes that are found in tumors, ulcers and other such lumps and bumps and sicknesses through out the body.
This test concluded that the body, when crying in sadness etc is literally flushing out all of the toxic-chemicals that accumulate and are a part of the sadness /heartache experience. Therefore if one holds back those tears, those toxic-waters will find somewhere else to deposit themselves, and prolonged lack-of-crying-release will guarantee that the body will accumulate a huge amount of internal pollution and toxicity that should have been released through the tears. Is it any surprise that our eyes sting so much when we hold back our tears?

LESSON FROM THE STUDY: CRY YOUR HEART OUT WHEN YOU ARE SAD
IT IS GOOD FOR YOUR HEALTH!

2006-11-14T21:17:00.000+08:00

Yup, tmr exams starts and i am here blogging again. Due to many obvious reasons duhz that is not studying, being restless as well as really very sian n not motivated. Haha.

Anyway, i not sure how would things be like for a uni exams. It would be first time experience as the normal tests and quiz are not those actual style we had been tested on so ya.

Goin to try to study now. Tata.

2006-11-12T13:07:00.000+08:00

Exams soon. Studies 0% still. Wellz, i found out on friday that Jeffery is going to the States - Seattles next sem. Envy envy. No more people i know to ask already. Wonder how much to go overseas next time. For him, he got a 9000 loan and a 3000 scholarship and he still got to top up quite alot still. At least my mum told me his aunt = my aunt too, live there so it shoudnt be a problem for accomodation. How much would i miss him. Ever since i enter uni, i have been asking him how to survive in ntu. He is a 2nd year biz student and he has been doing rather well while i really hating all the biz modules. Ahh... why is every one saying biz is easy!!! Argh. Everything is not easy for me. He is sayin that business is more about knowing the economics and stuffs. which i has no interest to find out more. Actually maritime also need to know what is happening in the industry such as insurance, conventions, law, accidents, environment and not forgetting geography. wahahaha.... so much to enter my mind. I could not escape maths and technology very soon.. Sianzzz. I hope it wouldnt be so bad as the engineering maths. Why? Studies with ww ytd and he keep asking me maths. And i m like OMG lar. I dun even come across that before. And -_-" he haben learn those either and he will only touch that in next sem and currently he is doin basic maths that is equivalent to maths c so still ok... i know the maths i going to learn is how to calculate the tonnage and etc as long as it is related to the ship. Wonder how it would be like.

Oh ya, from my jap class i got to know quite alot of people. Classes has ended, no more fun time already. Would miss the people there espcially valerie, gawang, adrian,jessica, jackson (with the steak), kelvin, diana, weiwei, weishin (fiona and karen from my course). Special thanks to gawang. He was very kind to offer me his tutorial answers for my accounting modules he took last year. Thanks alot. I really appreciate it. I would put it into good use. He and adrian is in their final year already. After this sem they would be on attachment and then graduate already. Think i would miss them. Level 2 ... maybe next year i will take. would be another class of unfamiliar faces again. haix. One sem is juz too short to enojoy uni life. I used to study 3mths before the major exams and slack 2 weeks before it. But now i only got 3 mths of schools and exams. Haix. Hard life hur.

Watch one litres of tears last week. It is a DAMN DAMN NICE show lar. Preapre one box of tissues if u are going to watch it. I would not say further.

Supposedly would haf a course gathering at toon place. Haha. He has moved to novena area. LOL. Yes. Someone same as area as me apart form bernice. Lol. But it clash with my cousin wedding. I juz forget it. damn. see how would the plan be. Kinda would regret it if i dun go as it would be a good chance to mingle with m course mates. Haix.that time they go kota tinggi i also cannot make it. haix. but at least i found some great ppl there alr. Goin to miss my accounting group ppl. The crappy yet intelligent ppl. Haha. One sem would come to an end soon exams are over. Dec is the time to do what i want before school starts again.Hmm....

2006-11-01T12:15:00.000+08:00

It seems that i already lost the will to do anything anymore.

Suddenly felt there is no hope in life.

My heart, my soul is already dead. Nothing can be done to revive it.

All i wish is to have a good sleep. But it seems very difficult to accomplish.

At my lowest point of depression now. Feel like jie tuo but i do not know what to do.

I can't even have a quiet moment to myself.

I just want to be alone, looking at the sea and relax.

I miss the world best sceneries. I hate the fact that i had to be in an urban world.

Love and hate, there is a clear line in it. It is not grey. I know what i like and what i hate but life does not allow one to just do what he/she likes and not doing what they hate. It is just the world out there. There is no choice and even there is, it would not be the prefect one.

Once the brain is off,it would takes 100 times harder to get it back on.

Once decision is made, there is no turning back.

Once i miss an opportunity, there would not be a similar one that would come along.

Once i miss you, my heart would break as it is over. But now, it is dead.

Once i give up, nothing would change my mind to work towards it.

This is life.

2006-10-24T19:45:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i just wonder. Especially when our class is so small. There are some people who totally do not bother by the surrounding. They think that they are damn good. For example, there is this girl. I was sitting at one of the benches before tutorial start and she just came to me and ask whether can sit here anot. I say yes as i recognise her from our course as well as many other tutorial groups. I was trying nice to strike up a conversation with her but apparently she was just too arrogant. She did not even look at me when talking and she did not recognise me from the same tutorial groups as well as course. I was like.... Then she just go to sleep.I was rather offended.

It seems hard to find true friends in school. I do not know since when other people starts to depend on me. It is like i do not know anything but they just keep asking me. Especially in projects. I am just trying to do my best only and giving some opinions but everyone just depends on me when they get lost. Doesn't it appear to them i would be lost too and i can't ask anyone for help?

Anyway, Yesterday was a rather chiong day for me. It is also my first time experiencing one whole day including travelling to and fro from home to school. Met my primary school friends as zc is leaving le. Haix. Gonna miss him. He would be away for a year. Had dinner at sakae. Had a long discussion to decide what to do after that. End up playing pool again. In the midst of playing, i 'snatch' away xx nitendo and play some lame games (how old is your brain) Lol. Quite interesting. Before going home, we took a group photo. Miss ya!

Next 2 weeks, busy time. Projects deadline all next week. Hope to survive through it before mugging real hard for exams.

Take care my friends. Good luck to those having exams really soon.

2006-10-22T22:58:00.000+08:00

Not in the blogging mood tho.

Hmm... sometimes i feel guilty for not doing anything during the weekends when there is a long list of things to be done. I spent my weekends sleeping late and waking up late. Watching tv, going out and slacking. But not working. I started to think that i did not have enough of the holiday break and now i am still holidaying. Exams are approaching i have not started mugging yet. What the hell am i doing. Hmm...

For example, i slept at 4am on sat morning and woke up at 1130am. After that just watch goong and slack till it was time to go out. Went to my grandma house then when orchard with ellyn. Went to shop as well. Bake pineapple tarts as well. Today? Woke up at noon and start watching goong. Ate alot today. Is like, just feel like eating. Bake cupcakes today too. Still watching goong. Going to sleep soon. Very tired.

Sometimes just wish that i do have to face studies. I wish i can disappear. I wish that university is the heaven people described but apparently it is not the case.

2006-10-15T11:29:00.000+08:00

Hazey Hazey Hazey.

The moment i woke up and step out of my room, i started to cough, sneeze and tearing due to eye irritation. I oculd barely open my eyes. How horrid.

Anyway, suppose to do some work yesterday but apparently did not do so. Woke up in the morning and was basically at the tv till it was time to go out. Met peiwen to go boon lay. We just accompany each other. Split there. Went to get my laptop as i am handicapped without it. My projects are all in it. How dumb was i on friday. Brought home the adapter but not the laptop. So so dumb. Thereafter, i headed to bugis to meet my mum and my brother. As usual, my brother is irritating me all the way. Nevertheless, I went on a shopping spree after dumping him wiht my dad when the stupid boy msg my dad theat my mum do not want to buy things for him, ask him to come. So irritating. He wants a watch that cost 179 and a wallet that cost 69. Like wth. In the end he only end up with the watch. SPOILT BRAD. Anyway, i bought a shorts at bugis streets. The plan was initially to go OG but we didnt went there. Brought my mum to THIS FASHION and we spent quite some time there. Bought a long sleeve blouse there and a dress. Interesting huh. Perhaps would go shaw THIS FASHION later if the haze would kindly go away.

That was my saturday. Wasted the day.

Friday. Basically normal lessons and projecting. Lol.

Today. Supposedly to be accounting and projecting. Having a family dinner later at 7. Got no idea what time i would go back hall. Long list of work to be done. Test is coming up again.

To my friends. Please take care this season. Everyone is falling sick.

2006-10-13T10:04:00.000+08:00

First time shop online. I bought this. Nice?? LOL! I am crazy. Anyway i already now eyeing on one of the sandals of papillo 2007 series.

Bought this through http://themodchicstore.blogspot.com/ Can view it at
http://i23.photobucket.com/albums/b385/meishi87/coppennasuipendant.jpg

Rather bad bad day today. Officailly woke up at 7pm. My head still hurts slightly. I think my neck is the cause. I do not know why. At 6am, i woke up feeling so horrible. I actually collaspe to the floor. think i woke up again at 7 and went back to sleep but still feeling the same. And now, i feel that i m paralyse on one side of my body. Rather weak. Like no strength. Haix. Another long day tomorrow.

2006-10-09T20:44:00.000+08:00

I got no idea what i have been doing for the past few months. Life has been full of up and down, nevertheless i had survive but yet i still have not found the purpose of living. What have i lived for for the past 19 years? What have i accomplished so far. My answer is No, nothing. I had questioned myself millions of times why i did this, why i did that but i have no answer. Why do we have to grow up, study then work and grow old as a cycle. It is making me very miserable. I seriously do not like what i m doing now. I do not even know how to answer those who ask me why did i choose this course. Seriously speaking, i got no idea what to study at all. But it seems that i m studying for the sake of studying and not for interest. Interest - is something that is very hard to follow due to circumstantial reasons. Everytime i start to wrie on my mini pad, my mood is always very bad. It seems that i cannot record the happy moments but only the sad moments. why do i want to live my live remembering the sad moments and forgetting the happy moments. I seriously do not kniow what i am thinking. I really want to be happy. but it is really difficult now. I am getting more and more sick of school. HOw i wish i can disappeared in thin air as i wish. It is not a nice feeling being coop up in school for 6 days a weeks 24 hrs a day. I really hate it. I do not know how long i can last. I got no mood to study at all. Nor have the motivation. I have lost myself since that day. Friends just come and go in your life. At every stage, you will always lose some friends and gain new friends but it is really difficult to find a true friend whom i can share my thoughts with and vice versa. Sometimes when your so called good friends just would not share anything with you, the feeling is not good at all. I cant seems to talk to anyone anymore. It is not nice to be a grown up either. More responsibilities. Supposedly more matured thoughts. I do not know. I know i am not there yet but would try to be. Ah well.

2006-10-08T22:43:00.000+08:00

The haze was rather bad the past few days in school. Looking at the sky really scares me off. Everyone say my headache is mental but i not too sure either. Currently down with flu and cough.

Never blog since wednesday so i shall start from there.

Wednesday: It was e-learning week for Business modules. Practically, it was the day which i had all my business modules so it was a free day for me. In the end, i went out instead of attending the online lecture. Went to library to get some books for my projects before meeting my friend at jurong point for lunch, japanese food. Yeah. Supposedly movie too but my friend could not get the stuffs wanted so off we go to causeway point. wander around there for a long while too. Visited the library there as well. First time there. Rather cool. Happend to have a pasar malam in view of the upcoming hari raya pusa so there is many malay food stores there. Yummy! We indulge in the food there and i had bought some takeaway for dinner. But apparently, i was too full to eat so i went for viola without dinner. Viola practice was alright, just that i did not practicce so i m rather screwed up. Everyone was asked to do a solo. I trembled. Everyone could play properly and i keep making mistake here and there. Promise to start practicing everyday. I hope i can. Came back for my dinner which became very oily and spicy. Bleahz. Apparently had an arguement with an overly concerned friend who discourage me to eat it. Am i being stubborn. Lol. Maybe i am.
Watched show the night and skip lecture the next day.

Thursday. Woke up late. Prepared for the project discussion later which only last for 30min. that is very irritating. the rest of the day trying to watch my shows and prepare for tutorial.

Friday. Mid AUTUMN Festival. Seriously i do not know whether i spelt it correctlly. Please correct me if i m wrong. Long day at school since 1030 to 1830. Dinner alone at hall before i managed to find someone out. Went chinatown. The haze that time was real bad. Not happening at all by the time i reach. That was 9pm already.LOL. Was rather bored. Kinda wasted my time travelling and going out. Back to hall instead of home.

Saturday. Projecting day. Ended around 2.30pm. Shag after that. Waited for my parents to pick me up but they get lost. Arrival time: 3.15. Was already very tiired then. Went to tpy to get my belated present. By the time we abt to leave, it was already 4.45pm. Decided to hang around since i am meeting ling, zc, kel and vic at 5.15. Zc got scolded by us because he wanted to change the meeting time due to him one peson who would be late. He ended up running. LOL. Serve him right?? Am i very evil.Lol. Went to purchase the movie ticket for WORLD TRADE CENTRE before vic came along. Had dinner at Kou Fu. Chatted alot too. Ling and zc keep quarelling. =x. Enough of it online and they still continued outside. LOL. Alot of interesting question asked by vic which makes the rest going on to ask even more outrageous questions, especially zc. Must shut him up sometimes. Haha. Caught the movie at 6.45. Nicey Nice. I hope one day when i visit universal studio, the scene would be there if it is set up there like the movie day after tomorrow where they set up the air plane crash scene. It mush be really nice. But i doubt so since the scale of the scene is very large. But it was rather draggy but at least it was a nice ending based on real story. After that, we had rounds of pool. i practically sucks at it. Won 2 time just because the opponent had the black ball in the wrong hall. Lol. The first round was between Vic and Kel (diploma) the experts. The first game based on their standards is really too far from expectations. We had a great laugh. gradually everyone starts to be serious and both kel n vic tried to guide me along in my aiming. Haha. Ailing and Me so called from PSLE but i think i am no more than nursery. ZC claimed to be nursery. Haha. The shortest games was between me and ZC. First shot, his white ball went in. 2nd shot, his black ball went in. It was really hilarious at that moment.

Today? Slacking day. Just finished listening to my accounts lecture but i do not understand anything. Sigh. Work to be done tomorrow.

P/S: I am trying to type it properly, without any singlish and shortforms. HAHA

Resolution
1. Mug everyday, alone or not alone. Must MUG.
2. Swear off singlish (difficult)
3. No more vulgarities
4. Try to eat rice instead of noodle
5. Drink more water.

Think that is all for now. Take care in the meantime. It is the start of a new week.

5 weeks down to Exams. Stressed!

2006-10-01T00:44:00.000+08:00

I m officially 19 le. Thanks to some "nice" friend of mine. hahah. sabo my plan. Anyway thanks.

Catch Miami Vice earlier. I already cannot tahan staring at the com for the past 10hr and i m not even halfway thru my draft. arghhhh. hate it. Need a break.

Went pilating this afternoon to relax. My back still hurts as much. Haix. Duno what is wrong with me.

Sorry yan for pangseh u today. In the end my efficiency level is so low that i still haben done finish my project.

1 more day b4 school starts. Tuesday going to be my worse nightmare!!! Assignment dateline cum accounting test which i haben touch. i m juz so dead... Sigh.

I m still not happy. STRESSED! CRAZY! i m juz tired...

2006-09-29T20:36:00.000+08:00

Projects are driving me crazy!

Anyway, my stupid brother off my laptop plug when i did not off it! DAMN HIM! i duno whether i have save my stuffs anot. Damn Idiot lor!!!!

School starting but i dun seems to have a holiday! More stress le.

Anyway my course mates say my sister look older than me.LOL!!!

My project mate call me the wise one. -_-" No comments! What do you feel doing a project with 1 guy and 3 other gals and they are a couple. I kinda feel weird lar. Seems like flirting like that. Haha. =x

Looking back, i really got a pathetic birthday! School till 9pm and an upcoming test the next day. Actually kinda disappointed. But very grateful to elaine and yanting for the mini surprise. haha. Didnt blow any candles this year so i m still 18! Haha. Anyway, thanks for all the presents. I like them lots. Each and everyone of them. I will treasure them.

8 Weeks of Uni Life so far... kinda settle down but not yet adapting well here. Schedule kinda fixed for the first sem.

Mon would be juz an hr of lect as well as normal grp discussion for mb101 tut. got a brunch of fun, nice and smart grp members to give answers to those i do not know. haha...

We really swear we hate our tutorial teacher for that module. She is horrid and i trust that our whole group are practically swearing and cursing her every moment in class... haha.

The rest of the day is to piang Mb101 tut on tues, studying consistently for jap spelling.

Tuesday is my longest day in school. Start at 930am with 3 tutorials and 1 lecture with one of my most dreaded class which ends off my day at 6pm. (Still cursing at the mb101 tutor) followed by viola lesson from 7 to 9. Throughout the day till 9? only 3 hrs of break.... worse than working life =( SHAGGED!

Anyway, enjoyed my first viola lesson today. rather interesting but shou very suan. haha. Interesting part. My bow broke when my instructor was applying ... (i do not know wad is it call tho) =( so sad lor. haben use then broke liao. haix. only have 6 of us. so not too bad. it was a fruitful session. did alot of exercises too. The subsequent ones get more stress since i dun really practice. Haix.

Wednesday ... For odd weeks.... i would be like starting school at 830 for an hr followed by 3.5 hr break b4 another lect and another 2hr break for the last lect of the day.

Thursday... one of my shortest day and out of sch day. Haha. end the day at 1230 and most of the time plan sth after that. Another spelling learning day.

Friday… For odd weeks, I start the day at 830 and end at 330. even weeks, start at 10.30 and end at 630. Rather long day for each week.

I have take up a lot of new stuffs recently.

All I can say is that I m not enjoying my core modules for my course but only the electives I chosen. Sad! And there are mostly business modules. Maybe I can say it is a good thing that I did not take business after all, but still, my course got a lot business module. Sianzation.

More and more sick of school. Stressed too.

Went to watch the musical The forbidden city on 7 Sept at the esplanade. Very Nice!!

I m not happy.

2006-07-27T00:41:00.000+08:00

Another day today of working and shopping. Spend alot today again and run alot places today... i think tmr would be the same for me too. hmm... almost settle everything except for the hostel thingy.... Soooo much to settle after toking to my cousin...sian diao already liao lor.... A very singlish post but i dun care. =p

Working life got to end soon... => no income liao. sian. wan to work also subject to approval... even sianer. more obstacles yet to come too. hmm.... future is so unpredictable.

To my friends,
Though the time we spent n communicate cease to exist when time past, i will never forget u. I will try to make it a point to maintain the relationships we have build up over these years esp to my dearest friends, ailing, peiwen, yan, elaine, mic, zc, yiting, pei, sandy, sylvia, ellyn, sophia, liyun, huiting and many others.... school starting and more time lost. no longer able to c them regularly at work nor near home. everything is going further away. But remember, i would be there in times of trouble. Just call me to confide in though i m not able to guarantee help but i will always listen to wad you have to say. I will remember those promises i have made to you.

time is wad i hate most now. the life i had for the past few months doesnt have any tracking of time. i lost track of time, dates, and even days. TV once my favourite past time has seems to disappear. =x. wad a meaningless life i had.

Lots to say but not to be penned down so that all now.

2006-07-24T23:18:00.000+08:00

Work-Playholic and soon to be back to be a student. No more work. No more play. One mroe week.

The weeks so far... no comment. no recollections. no memories. Just remember that i have a sotong, blur queen at work for many days though i do not know the reason why.
Really become a jin dian ren wu already. Anyway, happy early, belated birthdays to Peiwen, Harris, Peipei, Martin, JJ, Yanting, Jareth, Roosevelt. Too many people liao, hope i din miss anyone out.

Lots of crap with some ppl these days to the extent of madness. haha. yan shd understand. hehe.

Events for the week
Wednesday - Gift Shopping day cum work cum home dinner
Thursday - Dinner with snrs cum work
Friday - Sec sch gathering cum work
Sat - Gift making day cum work
Sun - Workoholic

AKA Work-Playholic. LOL

大雄爸爸 everytime say i so stress de. REALLY MEH? HAIX. Going to miss them all...

2006-06-29T08:51:00.000+08:00

I really duno what is happening to me. Feel very lost, depressed and pessimistic. Supposedly to rejoice as my office work is coming to a close but that not the case at all.... I m really really tired... insomia for the past 2 days is not a joking matter. the days coming haf been pack with much events and activities, also a possibility of disappearing too.... need to have a retreat soon...lol. everything is making me crazy and so sian. I just realise what a fool i have been. Close frens arent as close... sometimes it also hard to share problems hence adding on to the already heavy burden i had been carrying... much had happen these few weeks especially recently that me really dun wan to be home. life suxs huh? it seems that there is no space for me in the world so large. University is also my biggest headache and most feared turning point in my life. I fear for the environment, the ppl i will meet and the life i would have... it would definitely be very different. I wonder how i would expect these things to come. tho i feel like goin for the orientation camps... but i m afraid of ............ so much mao dun and fear. =(
Too much things happened that i m afraid that i cant accept it at the moment. it really difficult to go work with a smile when i m juz so tired as well as full of problems buried in me. I wonder how i manage those days when ppl ask me and told me i look as if i have alot of xin shi. that is true, but i always juz answer simply i m tired. xin shi looks like written all over my face. it really tiring for such a life isnt it. Office... i duno how i mamange to work so long either. but it would over soon. how i wish there would be someone who can accompany me. I need a long break, a space to breathe.

2006-06-25T00:28:00.000+08:00

Another few weeks passed since i last blog. Not really a habit anyway.

Just returned home from JJ Concert. Ellyn, Liyun and Sylvia was there too... hehe. did chat a little with sylvia... the rest din get the chance to. anyway the concert -It roxs and fun. But i admit i did fall asleep at the songs i duno. lol.... somemore the fast fast type one. His special guests was A Do and Jin Sha. Did tried to let elaine hear a do singing live but not clear... paiseh arh. It started at ard 8.40pm and ended ard 11.30pm.... JJ cried leh....
He sang alot songs sia... started with him blowing the lute i think with yi qian nian yi jian then his albums song.... at a point he also play the piano and sing along with it... very nice leh.... but i still dun like those fast fast song. haha... i feel like a total idiot there actually.... like most of the songs i duno like that.... =x it ended with cao cao then jiang nan then dui ni suo when he broke down. i think he really loves his singapore fans. Everything was nice except for some idiots who stand up and block my view totally.

Though the concert was enjoyable, but there is no transport except the stadium link buses.... cost 2 bucks per person but doesnt go kallang at all.... u can only choose amk, bedok or tampines. so sian lor.... ended up goin amk and then took a cab since it is so late and midnite liao.... hai.... like i m addicted to cab liao... last nite also took cab but can i complain!!!!

Here goes.... supposedly to take a cab at esplanade back home as everyone was rather tired but the queue was so long but there was no cab in sight.... Then we wanted to walk further down to get one ..... so many cab for hire yet they refuse to stop. some even have hire as well as on call sign.... wad is this manx! then in the end walk to fullerton the cab refuse to fetch tho there is no passenger lor...wad the hell.... walk to boat quay but most of them refuse to fetch with their on call sign.
The one we took initially rejected but upon askin our destination he agree... but i dun trust him at all.... before he reach balestier... tho it may seems normal... but i ask yiting where she want to drop is on purpose. if not wait that driver go one big round. but yan not lucky... the driver make a wrong turn and make a u turn ..... irritating ppl......

Shall start with today events bah.... went to meet ailing and we proceed to far east first. manage to bought a pair of sandals. met zx and kel there too.... cant really recognise them actually leh... same for me. haha. kinda miss my class guys... their craps and stuffs liao..... proceed to sushi tei to makan.... it is really GOOD and ex... but worth it. Never tried so nicey nice jap sushi with the fish really frest in ur mouth, really nice chawamushi, ramen that is not in miso base, the tempura is also very nice even when cold, and not forgetting the soft shell crab that is really sweet n crisp. Yummy!!! But cost us a bomb. haix... broke liao... haben sent my time sheet and bank in my cheque yet. chatted alot with ailing in the bus.... if not would be damn boring lar. JJ Concert... Overall : ENJOYABLE.

friday celebrate Elaine belated birthday!!!! Really glad you enjoyed yourselves.
Had dinner at globetrotters.... almost everyone had a main course except mi n yan sharing one.... but in the end we din manage to finish it. Boss was around that nite. Kinda sian.... but at least he bother to participate to sing the bday song for elaine together with roosevelt, sandy and pei... thanks sandy n peri especially for the service rendered that nite... it was really good. Love you guys. Next we went esplanade in search of fondues as the objective. in the end we settled at Chocz ...not too bad. Elaine treat. Thank you elaine. =). Really very long nv meet up with everyone together le. really enjoyed it and had fun.

Thursday - more work, decided to skip sinli bday celebration due to some reasons... sorry.

Wednesday... Decided to ask elaine out for dinner since i have cravings for steak. hehe... settled at hougang and shop alittle there. realise that i cant really eat so much meat now. i would feel ... After that went meet pw n ww at douby ... haha. they go the budget route so we end up walking to esplanade.... ate at glutton bay for the second time there as well as dinner... dotx.

Office work coming to an end le so it means i would be rather free!! yeah! lots of programs this one mth i haf left before chionging again. hope it would be alrite.

it is 1.10am now... gotta work at 9 later.... sick!! can i ? tata.

a suxy morning

2006-06-07T07:47:00.000+08:00

what a bad morning i have... i hate my sister!!! juz a while ago she was like screaming and shouting at my mum and i becoz she is goin to be late for school.... damn it. she even scold my mum stupid and dumb juz becoz she cant find her shoes.... so idiotic lor. She goin to be late for school doesnt means she haf to be so bad tempered that the whole world offend her like that. it has already spoil my morning and i hope it wun spoil my day. later would be out of office again... another running ard trip. hope i wun be too tired later not to go out with yan pw they all...

recently life have been juz work and more work... i juz manage to be at home on mon and tues ... aluxury which i haf lost since duno when. would be out this 2 days after office and the rest of week would be more work. Leaving for malaysia on sunday nite... so guys, if you wan anything, plz let me know before that. =)

Trying to work lesser now at globe not becoz of sianzation but becoz i m facing great stress from my parents... they juz keep asking me to quit but i have no intenetion to do so... i really love working there with all the fun ppl juz that sometimes it might get abit sian but overall the ppl are fun and nice. Parent really dun understand me at all... i really like this job alot. Everyday go home or go work they will also nag.. Stress level is incresing... insomia level too.... not much of quality sleep for the past few weeks liao. gettitng increasing tired too.

anyway... bangkok in early july... i hope it can be possible but i still miss US and have great desire to go australia cairns and sydney and korea...hehe... becoming a travel freak already. so ppl next time go travelling remember to call me worx...hehe.

June holiday weekends .... this coming sat... tho not cfm. pri sch gathering and jc gathering in the evening... haiz... see how i would plan my time.
24 jun ... jj concert!!! my first concert. =) weekends rather pack sia... need to plan wisely liao.

anyway i m so looking forward for ppl to contact me if they are interested to watch forbidden palance from 8 sep onwards... a musical which i miss when i was in sec 4... din manage to catch that. =(

At last... To all my friends out there... please take care.

Time to start work liao.

2006-05-17T14:41:00.000+08:00

Leading a screwed up life... all thanks to some ppl around me.

2006-05-04T01:10:00.000+08:00

* * * ..... Wonder wad the hell happen to me today.... i have a very nice day at work and time shopping in the early nite. the rest of it is horrible.

I just get so frustrated with myself n the ppl around me..... currently feeling so apologitic towards them. i think i m kinda loud earlier. *. i kinda walk out on them 2 times today while everyone is hafinf fun. 2 times i lose control of myself n i cant imagine how i manage to go back with a smile. wad the hell is wrong with me.

I really do feel like disappearing for the next few days but.......................................................there is work.........

Shall leave it to next week......... heck care liao. i m pisssss.

2006-04-19T14:57:00.000+08:00

Another off day for me from office only... later gotta work tonite ...another job scope again... being a play assistant. hope i would know what to do. My job at globetrotters has always been changing... much chances are given to me to try out other stuffs which others do not really have a chance at.... frankly speaking... i am having alot of fun with the people there... went pubbing with them last nite.... had quite alot of fun tho i was stoning most of the time. hah... how ironic it can be... the previous time i went mos with them i was also enjoying myself... it seems that i nv fail to enjoy myself with the crazy bunch of ppl there.... thanks for making my life there so enjoyable.

life has been filled up with work ... an estimate of 14hrs per day.... if not after office activities... tho was rather very tired and perhaps a very meaningless life... but i m determined to keep up with this. Coz i nv knoe wad the future has in stall for me. I may not even pursue my studies becoz i still dun understand the purpose of studying so hard and so much tho the purpose of it is to enquire more knowledge and not for future development. haix... how i wish studying is only for pure interest n not for the sake of future development. it really defeats the purpse of studying. haix... much crapping here....

Plans for the rest of the week...
Office n dinner with ailing tmr, office n dinner with s13 gals to celebrate sylvia bday, working whole day and sun, working n meeting up with our beloved mr yeow. => SHOWS THAT I M NOT AT home. LOL. crap again.

duno wad has been goin ard me at all. hope to take another holiday break soon next mth... maybe cameron. lol. i miss the cool whethe in usa but i cant afford to visit there so soon so gotta substitute it with other places. lol. pray hard for company bah..lol... duno why ppl so shock when i say i wan go alone. haha. it can be a very relaxing trip. plan to stop work actually mid june... but told them end june.... actually wan to stop at least one mth b4 everything starts again if it ever starts.

2006-02-11T10:47:00.000+08:00

can anyone understand my helplessness last nite?

I did cry lots last nite, didnt explain to peiwen why and she tot was over another thing ... but may explain to her later bah.

tmr maybe the judgement day i guess.... wonder how much longer i can hold out

finding someone to tok to isnt easy. i hope she will turn up later before i start to cry again.

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o lvl results - rather pround of the gal whu is top. Fyi, she is from moulmein.
haha... bhs few tops student alsxo moulmein de...really a glory to the sch.
Sadly it is not around anymore.

2006-02-09T09:21:00.000+08:00

had a very bad nite ytd.... i swear i didnt really slp at all... feeling so tired now with a headache... working later.

Ytd got off... so i ended up slacking at home, finishing my vcds and slack like siao.... i haven start planning the friday/saturday/wednesday thingy yet... soon... by tonite i hope i can provided i get the replies... hmm... where is still a question to mi.

2006-01-11T21:35:00.000+08:00

Feelings mixed now? Wonder what I have been up to these days. Just cant seems to get anything right.

Went out with mich, laine and yan ytd. Shopping at bugis.. In the end, i bought the most stuffs. =x. Damn broke now. Earlier in the day went visit grandma. her anniv yet i forget.. i really fail as a grand daughter.

Cook alot of stuffs today... really suxs today. I wonder why my food so suxy today.
Send out lots of applications too... somehow i dont feel much hope already. feeling rather disappointed too. I feel rather useless.. cant do anything rite, on top of that, i really duno wad to do now at home. feeling really really lost now. so sad at this stage of life hor. =(

It is juz so hard to express oneselves in words. It can only be kept in the heart or be felt by others. HOw true would this be.

Watch finish tian guo de jia yi on fri sat. So nicey nice. Want to watch more vcds.. to kill time.

THIS WEEK SO FAR

2006-01-06T07:57:00.000+08:00

Been back for a week already... paractically a horrible week to me.

Sat - Long day out with my sec sch frens for dinner.
Sun - A afternoon out with ailing
Mon - Spent time in my house with Ailing
Tues - Class BBQ n Zhicai Birthday Celebration at Si jie house. Sophia last day in sg too.
Wed - Went to Chomel for interview and met ailing after her work. I look damn weird in formal wear lar.
Thurs - Went kellyservices and tcc for interviews again. Shopping was fun alone. Going back Bugis wif mum this sat to shop i hope.
Today - no job listing. Slacking day.

My keyboard juz suxs. I wonder y? Practically if i slp at 8.30pm i would juz wake up at 3am and struggle to slp and fail. one whole week like tat liao. trying to slp more also cannot. juz chat with peiwen and andy ytd. some opinions shared. hope to meet up with them soon. guess it is not my keyboard but my com together that is screwing up. sign up some lessons to kill time in the meantime. need some income soon to maintain my expenses. not goin to get any cash from parents anymore.

Somehow i have set a target in life which i think it is rather too late already.
If possible, i would like to pursue a degree in business either in ntu or nus followed by masters in hospitality management in ntu. cool huh. guess that is my current target for my life now. Really hope to get the job at tcc instead then i can still work part time when i start schooling if i ever make it. i would be lol if really no job accept mi.

Would be starting a blog on my trip to usa soon. i duno how soon is it tho. =p. Would inform in my blog abt that when it is done.

Hope now is to fall aslp. muahahaha.

2005-12-14T07:18:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl... it is me again. Currently it is 13/12 tues, 3.14pm.
Plans for the rest of the days here - wed to fri in las vegas, the rest i m going to be station in LA already. Haha.

So far, i have visited hollywood which i find it nothing.
Next, I have a 3D 2N tour to San francisco.
We first stop at Solvang. A danish town. A very pretty place
Next, Hearst's Castle. The architecture is simply flawless. my sister love it.
The following day, we went to yosemite national park. I love there more. gotta wake up at 5am to prepare for this trip. we saw the valley there but it was too foggy to see clearly, next we saw a waterfall without water. interesting huh.
Finally we arrive in san francisco in the afternoon. it is a really nice place. i would really like to go back there. a romantic city ppl said. it is really beautiful.
Visit pier 39, golden gate bridge, bay bridge, chinatown, lumber street. the houses are simply beautiful too.. the tour guide say it is expensive to live there.

Sat, i went to take the palm spring aerial tram to the mountain top. that is where i see snow. beautiful. had a nice dinner there too. =)

Sun, ontarios mills... went shopping there. bough some shirts from tommy hilfiger, roxy.

Ytd... i simply sleep and slack at home.

2005-12-05T12:48:00.000+08:00

Hi, now is 8.55pm on 4/12 over here. Not too bad over here. Cant come online so often as there is no internet in my cousin house.

I am able to adapt to the weather here so not too bad. Neither did i suffer a jetlag. =p. Food is ok here since we practically have korean food and today, american buffet for lunch and dinner. So not to worry. I do not feel that i m in United states still...lolx.... Maybe korea or china? Haha.

So far, I have been to Disneyland and Universal Studio. Just had a spin in the evening at hollywood earlier. The rest of the time... sleeping... practically slp for more than 12hrs per day...surprisingly rite.

Bought Quite a lot of things here. Earlier went to a shopping mall earlierl. Bought Levi Jeans for Mi eleanor and aubrey. Abt USD 20plus. Cheap rite.

Goin to San francisco this wed till fri. Details when i return. Take care.

today...

2005-11-29T00:58:00.000+08:00

Had a long long day today...tiredzzz... last post b4 i leave already.

Went to get my watch this morning...lol... kinda fall in luv wif the watch at first sight... very nice...hehe

Meet my sec sch frens in the afternoon. Had lunch at tcc b4 goin to lido to watch prime. Not a nice show at all. haha... kinda lost interest in movies already so kinda not rather interested but nvm. Aftertat went walking ard with michelle to look for some prom accesseries. Saw some nice stuffs but sadly, i m broke.lolx.. spending too much these few days... kinda feel tired with a headache as usual whenever i shop.

Proceed to Marina bay to meet the pri sch ppl now. Only got mi zc kel vic n al. as usual bah.. kinda dun mix wif the others at all. Waited for abt an hour. lalala... i reach too early after changing the time yet everyone is late still...hahaha... so funny =x... As usual vic is feasting on prawns mostly, zc on veg, kel on balls and others, n mi n al on meats...lolx. it like so normal. haha...wanted to play pool at the nearby shop but close down already =x...vic was like saying he wan go home...lalala... in the end we end up at paradiz... score 2-2... mi n kel agst al n vic...haha... the game was making mi laugh throughout...lolx. More pool next time...but duno when liao...lolx.. 2 years later i guess...haha.

A few more hours before i go. Cousin still suaning mi... time to ignore him liao...lolx... rofl.. going to make him so -_-" .=p bad right.Nitex. Miss ya ppl.

mum bday

2005-11-27T20:36:00.000+08:00

Didnt felt that we are celebrating mum bday today. lolx...
Juz a simple dinner and had some cakes. It is like normal? lolx... Managed to buy all the gifts for Vincent and Juju... as well as pearlyn and justin...

Saw a bag i like today again... haix... ytd saw another too... in the end i din buy any...kinda broke already...=x one of them is $65 bucks.... like so ex...=x In the end my sis bought it but not the color i like. nvm... craze over bags...haha.

Trying to blog more often b4 i leave... dun think i would be blogging anymore after today...kinda busy tmr... As for the rest... tc.

2005-11-27T12:19:00.000+08:00

2 days left... tiredzzz

I finally found the right word to describe myself.
I M A MUTE.
There is no way i can ever communicate with ppl. or rather, i havent found a way out.

Sorry to ailing, din noe u are so stress out wif friends.

Found out some ways of escaping...
1. Sleep
2. Drink
3. Go Shop
4. Getting high on caffine..lolx

Sometimes when it becomes too extreme that it becomes nothing.

Dear friends, enjoy these holidays. Have Fun.

WOULD BE AWAY FROM 29 NOV TO 31 DEC. PLZ PLZ DO NOT CALL ME UNLESS EMERGENCY. EMAIL ME. THANKS YOU.
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Practically cant relly recall wad i did for the past few days... anyway, i no longer remember wad i did ytd. worse off... memory has failed terribly. So muz remind me. =P
But i wun forget ppl... juz events.

2005-11-24T22:46:00.000+08:00

Finally... it is over. But i dun feel any sense of relief at all. Sadly, i dun feel anything. But at least no more exams or SRJC till next year.

The first thing i did after exams was to rebond my hair... not too bad... but i paid a bomb. hope the effects will last.

Wanted to go enjoy the nite life but was kinda tired already... so i juz headed straight home.

Argued with my father juz now over the selection of schools... argh... wad does he noe abt it. My bro results juz suxs. The sch he wan to go is going to further deterioate his results with the frens he haf there...arghh.... he juz duno anything. so wad if the name of sch is so nice.

I wonder wad is the picture of heaven n hell in one mind..

I dun like sweet stuffs

I hate to have dreams as it turns out to be nitemares

I m going to be jobless for a long time

I Got to pack my luggage soon

2005-11-24T11:43:00.000+08:00

A few more hours to go to total freedom. =)

So looking forward to it.

Sometimes i juz hope the time faster flies while there are are other times i hope it would juz slow down.

Soon after, the 2 years in jc would be over. Most prob wun be seeing them soon.

Juz hoping...

Goin havoc later. Tho i am not sure wad i wanna do. =x

Gotta make my last day meaningful

A day which i can really feel enjoyable

the past few days have been heaven and hell for mi.

Hoping for more heaven

Going to be MYSELF

2005-11-20T12:59:00.000+08:00

The As coming to an end le... one more to go and i am free! hehe. but i already start playin =p.

Went to club momo yesterday during happy hours... was rather sian there... nobody de. the place was rather small... then left to go eski bar for fun =p. one of the nicest place ever. du go there without wearing warmer clothes...lolx

left a week and a day more to go...
bored...

dance

2005-11-12T01:10:00.000+08:00

i wan to dance!

Exams + thoughts

2005-11-12T00:47:00.000+08:00

Exams so far haf been rather screwed up. But i m not the lest bothered about it rite now. Wellz, it is over and still i do not see the point of taking the exams.

Maths was easy but i screw up
GP P1 i screwed up since i do not understand wad the hell i was writing. As for paper 2, i find it easy as i m able to apprehend the passage but answering of questions is another thing.
Chem p3, completely screw.

Fun Plans
1 day - shopping
1 day of escape n www
1 day of gathering
1 day of nite life

seriously not really mugging anymore. i juz had a sumptous lunch and a shopping trip today... enjoying myself huh instead of mugging my guts out for the last dash. i wun be surprise if my results is freaking lousy. afterall, i m the losiest in the family whu make it to a jc. the worse was BDD. if i maintain it ... it wudnt be that bad hor.

Announcement

2005-11-12T00:42:00.000+08:00

I would be uncontactable with immediate effect. Kindly leave me alone or face the consequences. Only available after 24 Nov and before 29 Nov.

in my mind...

2005-11-06T11:59:00.000+08:00

So looking forwards to watch rainbow connection. =)

and not exams =x

random tots

2005-11-05T11:46:00.000+08:00

Maybe i am really not a human, said by someone. I do not react the way a normal person would react... supposedly it is a natural instinct but it didnt come to me. it seems that i m either too naive or i m still afterall a child. my thinking is far too alike like a child. it is juz too simple... i do not know and wish to understand how does the grown up thinks. it is far too complicated. i m juz being myself. plz dun criticize on this fact. i think straight. not goin to complicated matters for myself.

Exams are round the corners.. but i m not mugging. i have given up actually. i do not know why.

no hope, no goal.

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2005-10-21T17:40:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to blog tho there are many thoughts on my mind.
My MIA plan would start from today. So not to worry. Would update after the exams.

nth nice in this post.

2005-10-03T20:31:00.000+08:00

i m goin to complain and complain in this post .... dun care already...tolerate too long liao... finally got ppl sharing the same views as mi and understand the rationale for doin so... finally... no matter how ppl see... i do not care at all...

being the anti social everywhere... i dun really talk to anyone... unless i m being spoken too ... it is juz me... i dun know how to haf a normal conversation with anyone at all... not that i duno how to tok... besides that... i got no topic to talk abt... those topics that gals normally tok abt... i got no idea of it at all.. practically... a social idiot i wud described myself... i duno wad is goin on every where and the latest trend and stuffs..

currently being faced with many problems.
1. my family... i haf to hear shouting everyday over the smallest issue even early in the morning... how i wish i m not at home...
2. my classmates... assumption does not mean anything +++
3. sometimes i juz cant find any1 to confide in in this journey at the critical period.
4. exams stress is obvious..juz no motivation to mug

didnt wan to elaborate too much..interested to know can ask mi personally...

sometimes i really duno how to be a good fren...i do not know how to help them at all in times of need...

it is juz so difficult... when can i go back to my crazy ways again... how i wish it is the fun period now. lolx... too early to say tho... i m not even prepared for the exams.. oh great...
4.

belated bday

2005-09-25T08:33:00.000+08:00

had lotsa fun ytd wif my sec sch friends..heehee... met them abt 6pm at clarke quay... this time ...like finally... more girls then guys...lol!!! haha. had dinner at riverside indonesia restaurant. the food not so bad juz that i cant eat much... haha.. imagine 7 ppl .. 12 dishes...that is like more than a normal 10 course dinner...haha. very filling... hehe... after that we juz took some fotos... oh ya.. those whu wan it plz let mi know...=p. wanted to walk to esplanade but we end up at raffle city cartel to rest and haf some desserts... heard that the cheesecake isnt nice. initially we walk pass clarke quay... i kinda attracted to the nite life there ... it seems so cool and kinda not complicated... it is juz simple... saw that bungee thingy ... first time ..haha. yea.. had fun ytd... thanks yan, yiting, laine, mic , ks , mel for celebrating it wif mi... oh ..it does feel like my birthday ytd..lolx... thanks shawn for wishing mi happy birthday..lol thanks them in addition to mh, gene and zw for the present... do let mi know if i miss any one out.. =p. thanks lee hwa for the prezzie too... haha... it is very very nice.=p .this year birthday was spent rather ok... juz that the mood isnt that rite..lolx. perhaps it is exams bah. hehx.

oh great... wun be online too often now... i got difficulties to on my lap top... sometimes muz press the start button many times b4 it will be on. frustrating... wad if one day i cant on it... all my data all lost le...hmm... my hp is another one which is giving mi problems... my cam got this preview error which i duno wad is it... and the keypad seems problematic as well... it doesnt reflect wad i press... so do forgive mi if the sms i sent is full of typos..lol... it seems that all my electronic devices start to die on mi now... oh great huh.

yeah!!! i m goin to haf a great day ahead wif ailing...hehe... goin to meet her soon.=p... breakfast neoprints cheesecakes kboxing and perhaps dinner too..=p and some shoppin if we ever had the time...hehe... whole day goin to be gone again... i guess the amt of i did wud be able to cover for tmr tut bah...haha... gtg... laptop no batt... the batt also suxs lar... use to last for 2h and now... not even 30 min... crap sia.

A new skin

2005-09-23T11:53:00.000+08:00

Some of you ppl muz haf wonder where my blog has disappear too for the past one week rite... well...anyway it is now back and running... this skin is nice rite.=p. bhb hor mi... haha yea... i didnt wan to edit it too much so i m goin to leave it as it is .... i would insert a tag board in at a later date...kinda lazy now...lol...

Prelim juz ended today and i feel kinda lost actually... haha... noe i wun fare too well for tis prelims but still there is a big As coming very soon... stress sia... haha... got 3 sets of maths hw to do for this weekends...=x... not a moment to rest at all... goin to enjoy myself tmr and sunday...hehe...

Reflections for the past few weeks...
1. i m a person whu seems calm but yet inside mi it is on fire... as commented by some ppl... hehe.
2. i m not able to control my emotions well enough to not let it affect others
3. the period during prelims are the worst times i ever had in jc
4. i m not being a nice person all this while i think.lol

lost may not be a good word to describe how i m feeling right now but it is indeed how i m feeling now... i know i shdnt be feeling this way as it is still the critical period.. time for some rest.